No mood

Have lots of updates to write about…. but I’m in mood to do happy kwento.  Tonight hasn’t been good.  Had a little misunderstanding with the hubs.  I feel like I do all the work and he does all the talking.  Why do I feel that way?  Because he gets to do something he loves doing everyday, then joins dart tournaments twice a week… while me?  I had 2interviews this week, checked out the house we are moving to, sent an important document to the bank for our housing loan and then met up with the broket and our landlord.  All in 2 days.

So you see I’m dog tired.  I need a breather.  Need to meet up with friends.  I miss my friends.  I miss just spending time with myself, with no errand in my list.  I miss reading a book, curled up in bed.  I miss going to the movie house.  I miss walking around the mall of my taste, window shopping or shopping.  I miss eating Ice Monster in the open, under the dark skies.  I miss free flowing conversations with friends.  I miss just hanging out.

Am I normal to feel all these?  I love my boys dearly – that’s including the hubs.  But I miss the things I enjoyed when I was single. 

Hay.  I’m praying that tomorrow will be a better day.  I’m praying for endless patience.  I’m praying for more understanding and a lot of sympathy.  I’m praying for hugs and kisses to heal me.  I’m praying for me-loving moments.  But for tonight I rant, I acknowledge my feelings for they are soooo real.  And I write about it to hopefully start me-loving.


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    kaith said,

    oh, i have been feeling those emotions too! sometimes siguro, with all the overwhelming responsibilities and to-dos, masarap lang tlaga mag-relax and think of just yourself. go, go. have that me-time! 🙂

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    Carina said,

    Di ba? So now I understand my Mom when she makes time to go out with friends, without us. When I was little, I thought that was not nice… 😀

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